‘We are in this lonely battle together’ — poet Rupi Kaur’s message for those fighting the ‘sickness’

In the midst of so many suicides that have taken place this year — I feel terrified. Sometimes I myself feel so trapped in the dark it feels like the only way out is to end it all.

  • Published 17.06.18
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In the midst of so many suicides that have taken place this year — I feel terrified. Sometimes I myself feel so trapped in the dark it feels like the only way out is to end it all. I know that’s not the answer. I’m lucky that the other part of my mind — the one that feels like it still belongs to me. The part fighting the darkness wins and I find the motivation to walk out into the sun and try another day.

Depression has its phases. This sickness is more difficult to understand and comprehend than any other experience I’ve had. 

When you hear the news and you see musicians, artists and folks you deeply admire take their own life — it leaves me speechless. I always feel 2 things: 

1. If they with all their knowledge support and access to resources couldn’t beat this thing — how the hell will I? And my next thought is — 

2. We will get through this. We have to. I message my loved ones who are suffering from depression and other mental illness and tell them that we are in this lonely battle TOGETHER.

Today I feel broken but I feel hopeful. And I’m sharing these details because it breaks me how some of you feel so alone you want to leave. I don’t want any of you to feel stuck at the first feeling that I mentioned above. I do not want you all to think that depression is an end and that there’s no way out. That’s the sickness talking. IT IS NOT YOU. when you feel low and find it difficult to reach out because your mind says “no one cares or understands” or “I’m bothering folks”. THAT IS THE SICKNESS TALKING. Pick up the phone. Call up your loved ones. We’re not going to get through this battle alone. It takes a village. We have to keep trying until we find solutions that work for us. (Strict routine. Drawing. Exercise work for me) We as a society have the power to make things better or worse. Even when it comes to this sickness, we have to hold ourselves accountable for how we treat people. How we have dialogue in public and private spaces and ask ourselves: Could I have been kinder? And more supportive? And then be kinder. Be more supportive. Sending all my light to those who’ve lost loved ones to this disease. 

I love you. I love us. I love the potential of humanity.

— Rupi Kaur’s Instagram post on June 9

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