Thank you, Didi, for not honouring me.
Because I have never liked attending award functions ever in my life. All my life I have felt that I don’t deserve any award. Thank god my name isn’t there on the list of people who are being awarded this evening.
I am happy that I am not being awarded because I don’t have to answer to myself whether I deserve this award.
Besides, there’s so much political colour to the discussion of who got and who didn’t get the Mahanayak Samman 2014 award that I don’t want a political colour to my answer.
I feel the people who decide to give away a certain award should judge with honesty. But every award is now given away on the basis of an individual’s partial judgement. Do they have a board of people who decide on these awards? If they don’t then I feel that the person receiving the award is actually disrespecting his profession and himself. That’s why I don’t want to be a part of such awards.
People who are getting the awards are getting it because of no fault of theirs and those who are not getting it are also not at fault.
My question is those who get the awards, do they feel honoured? Don’t they feel disgusted? For getting any kind of award a person should have a body of work. If the award is going to people who do not have that kind of work behind them then what’s the point of this award?
Of course, if people feel that they should get an award with or without a body of work then this award function is a success.
I feel if this money was spent on Namkhana to build a few lamp posts on the roads or tubewells in Birbhum and Bankura, it would have been worth it. Why is so much money spent on these awards? I feel this is just a waste of time and money.
I would like to add that for every state function I always get an invitation card to attend it and I feel honoured for that. It’s not a grapes are sour-like situation for me. I am not angry or sad because I am not getting an award. All I want to emphasise is that I don’t know what all of them who are getting the awards have contributed to the industry. I am not that aware.
All I am aware is that I don’t want my name on such an award list.
Roopa Ganguly is a national award-winning actress