The school identity card of Mukesh Tuddu
A 17-year-old student of a premier residential school in Bokaro hanged himself early on Monday morning, leaving behind a neatly written one-page suicide note that showed a highly sensitive and intelligent personality.
Mukesh Tuddu, a Class XI science student of DAV School, Sector VI of Bokaro steel city, was found hanging from the ceiling fan of room No. 41 of Arya Samaj Mandir, the hostel on campus, at 6.15am.
Hostel boys, who are supposed to rise early, were curious when the door of room No. 41 stayed bolted. Peeking through the window, they saw Mukesh’s body and immediately informed the warden.
School authorities informed Sector VI police station. Sector VI officer-in-charge D.K. Prajapati said prima facie the unnatural death appeared to be suicide. The body has been taken for post-mortem to Chas subdivisional hospital.
Mukesh’s family originally hails from Chakai, Jamui district in Bihar. Mukesh’s father Bateka Tuddu, however, is posted in Madhupur, Jharkhand, as a high school teacher. Parents apart, Mukesh is survived by two siblings — an elder sister doing her teacher’s training in Deoghar and a visually impaired younger brother at home.
In his letter, Mukesh asked for his parents’ forgiveness. He added he wasn’t killing himself as the fallout of a romance, rather he mourned the fact that he had no maqsad (aim) in life and could not tolerate any sorrow.
“Samajh mein nahin aa raha hai agey chal kar kya karunga. Mujh se koi dukh taklif saha nahin ja raha hai, chhoti si bhi chot bhi saha nahin jata hai… bekar ki batein sochne ki bimari ho gayee hai (Can’t decide on what to do in life later. I can’t endure suffering, not even the slightest of hurts…have contracted the malady of thinking useless stuff),” wrote the sensitive boy who was good in studies.
Rare for a suicide note, Mukesh said death wish was foolish and no other boy should go ahead with it.
He signed off the letter as “abhaga beta (unfortunate son)”
His father, who reached Bokaro on hearing the news, was shell-shocked. “I can’t imagine my son killed himself. I sent him to Bokaro to excel in studies and crack the IIT. I have come now to take his body home. I am an abhaga man and teacher,” he sobbed.
Mukesh’s roommate Saurabh Kumar, of the same class, had gone home to Hazaribagh. He returned after coming to know of the tragedy.
Friend Abhishek said the boy was above average as a student, serious and an introvert. “He wanted to crack IIT or UPSC. He was not one for loose talks. No one could have imagined Mukesh would commit suicide,” he said.